My Life Just Began

As we know, each of us someday will find someone who trully can accept us for who we are. No matter how hard your situation someone is willing to give their hands to pick you up. They will lend us their shoulder to cry, time to spend with, and laugh to cheer us up ;) Some people might not understand why they meet some people in their life. Well, life is like a circle on how we treat them we get it back in the same way though!

     So, here is my story. I met so many people in my life. Whether they are my real friends or just came to make a mess like a bitch. My friends likely come and go every time they want and some of them just took me for granted. I might not rich with gold and money but I can help people in my own way to solve their problem. I will give them my own opinion on how we should solve the problem in a better way. I love being nice to everyone but why everyone likes to make me feel low and down? I just don't understand that.

We Meet Again

Only God knows how's I feel :D Actually I quit my job as gym operator in the end of January 2013. As a gym operator I met so many people with different body shape and look.. So, here is the thing. I met this guy who claimed himself as Elvira Chua. Every time I asked him to write down his name, he will use Elvira Chua *it's a girl name*  That guy is kinda cute, baby face and seriously handsome. So I put him on my crush list :)
    On 11th May 2013, I decided to continue my part time job as waitress at ParkCity Everly Hotel Miri and what surprising me most is I met my crush. Damn! HAHAHA! He keep staring at me. I was busy with clearing the plate on the tables suddenly he came to me talk to me.. In my heart I was like *I don't know how to explain* damn he's so cute >_<' but something ain't right when Boboy tell him that I admired him. I just can't say a thing and feel ashamed with myself!
     So the next day I thought he's not coming but I saw him standing in front of the front office and he keep staring at me with his most cute smile! I'm melting~ His eyes following my movement.. Audrey told me that his eyes keep starring at me!!! :3 Damn! FYI dear crush, I still kept your towel.

p/s Just my crush..hahaha

My Shape

I hope this is me :O this is awesome and cool!! Well, I just started my diet few days ago. Some say I can be more beautiful if I had this kind of body. Perhaps I could do it well and show to the world nothing is impossible :D HAHAHA I still remember what my ex told me about my shape and that awkward moment was taught me to be more sensitive about my shape and diet.. Just discipline they said. Just wish me luck yahh!! Hehehe

#and also I want my boobs shaping well afterward. Just have some more patience in me and be more confident though..

New Looks

At last! I can design this blog into her new looks :D well, I had nothing much to say actually but today on 1st May 2013 my blog officially was updated by me.. Fuuhhhh, I thought I wouldn't had any idea to make it more beautiful.. HAHAHAHA..
p/s to be continued and more post to come :) just wait!
 #goodnightfellas

I'm Back

I'm goneeeeee for a very long time but now I'm back. I have so many things to share with you in this blog but I don't know how to begin and where to start. Let's start with my personal 'love story'

Well, since I've turned to single without having any relationship with other guys out there, most of guys out there could be bothersome to me. Hmmm~ Still my ex Mr.Dexter asking for my returns, what should I do then? He's just my past that sometimes annoyed me and makes me angry with people around me without any reason -___- but thanks to my friend Carolyne who always be next to me when she is needed coz she is the only person who understand me enough.

Next is I met this guy during JPJ Test on 6th March 2013. He has a good looking that probably makes we(girl) fall in love/flirt with him. I keep thinking about him, before gone to bed yet woke up in the morning his name still the first thing that popped-up in my head. He always calling me whenever he got his free time after work. Listening to his voice was my favorite part. We met during our free time and chat like we already being a couple but we're not. He's so attractive and adorable, he know how to make other people laugh and I was enamored by his beauty! *melting*

Other than that, I started to believe the existence of love through my sister's friends. He's a kind person who always care for me. Yes we became a couple but it's already over. I choose to leave whereas he's still waiting for me to come back. I told him that I wasn't that good person and try to get rid of him. He is too good to me so I'm barely to make a move :'( He is that Mr. Right that I was waiting for so long but he came at the wrong time.

Recently, I go out for a date with someone who only take someone for granted. FYI he is my friend's(Jane) scandal. They both just dating for fun and always fight for nothing. Well, Mel already knew that Jane had a boyfriend but still he wanted to be one of her part. One day I got a call from unknown number, at first I wasn't pick up the phone because my phone is still inside my bag. He keep on trying to reach out for me and at last we had a few talks before he confess something that was totally stupid. He likes me! -__- now he want to find a way to tackle me and throw the other girl to the other side. HAHAHA! He is a stupid guy I ever met in my life. Ready to take a risk though it might hurt himself!

Hmmm. Everything happened for a reason, we only need to find a way to know why it is happened. *yawn*
Goodnight blogie!
#kumakumakuma!

Morning

Sigh~ I dreamt of you last night Dexter :') Lately I've been thinking of you but seems like all of it useless. I don't know why I still wasting my time to think about you, to have you back. But last night really surprised me when I think back.. You asked to to come back, you tell me everything about what and why you want to come back to me :') You said that you really regret on what was happened and want me back, you told me everything about what you feel and you desperately needs me.
      Wish it come true dear. I do love you so much more even you're so far away. Even you're bring this relationship down but seriously I'm still loving you. Perhaps someday I can show you how much I love you all this time. I had tried to live this life without you and sometimes I can cry because of you. I love you dear one :')

Annyeong :(

Aigooo :'( so suddenly the thing that I hate pretty much disturbing n messing my mind. I seriously can't give you any chance to love me like all of my ex's did before. Think twice before you totally regret it. Sooner or later you might get hurt. It's not because I can't love anybody else but I'm not ready to give any serious commitment in any relationship. I hope you understand. Before you get hurt its better for you to step backward and stop on hoping.
     I thought everything will be fine but seems like I can't help it huh~ perhaps someday you guys out there dont give to much hope on someone who really refuse to take you as their partner ;)

Suddenly I felt something ain't right here. I don't know what but it's totally freak me out and I can't believe that my tears already falling. NOW. Ohh,,can I just cry without any reason?come on la I'm not strong enough to face any dissapointment just now. CRY CRY CRY :'( CRY CRY CRY CRY!!!!!!!!!!

New Year New Journey

Happy New Year 2013 blogie :D hmmm.. Perhaps I can begin new life and forget the past.. Dear God please hear my prayer. Amen. Ohhh!! Nothing much to say la.. -_____-' hahaha..
#to be continued