I'm Back

I'm goneeeeee for a very long time but now I'm back. I have so many things to share with you in this blog but I don't know how to begin and where to start. Let's start with my personal 'love story'

Well, since I've turned to single without having any relationship with other guys out there, most of guys out there could be bothersome to me. Hmmm~ Still my ex Mr.Dexter asking for my returns, what should I do then? He's just my past that sometimes annoyed me and makes me angry with people around me without any reason -___- but thanks to my friend Carolyne who always be next to me when she is needed coz she is the only person who understand me enough.

Next is I met this guy during JPJ Test on 6th March 2013. He has a good looking that probably makes we(girl) fall in love/flirt with him. I keep thinking about him, before gone to bed yet woke up in the morning his name still the first thing that popped-up in my head. He always calling me whenever he got his free time after work. Listening to his voice was my favorite part. We met during our free time and chat like we already being a couple but we're not. He's so attractive and adorable, he know how to make other people laugh and I was enamored by his beauty! *melting*

Other than that, I started to believe the existence of love through my sister's friends. He's a kind person who always care for me. Yes we became a couple but it's already over. I choose to leave whereas he's still waiting for me to come back. I told him that I wasn't that good person and try to get rid of him. He is too good to me so I'm barely to make a move :'( He is that Mr. Right that I was waiting for so long but he came at the wrong time.

Recently, I go out for a date with someone who only take someone for granted. FYI he is my friend's(Jane) scandal. They both just dating for fun and always fight for nothing. Well, Mel already knew that Jane had a boyfriend but still he wanted to be one of her part. One day I got a call from unknown number, at first I wasn't pick up the phone because my phone is still inside my bag. He keep on trying to reach out for me and at last we had a few talks before he confess something that was totally stupid. He likes me! -__- now he want to find a way to tackle me and throw the other girl to the other side. HAHAHA! He is a stupid guy I ever met in my life. Ready to take a risk though it might hurt himself!

Hmmm. Everything happened for a reason, we only need to find a way to know why it is happened. *yawn*
Goodnight blogie!
#kumakumakuma!

Morning

Sigh~ I dreamt of you last night Dexter :') Lately I've been thinking of you but seems like all of it useless. I don't know why I still wasting my time to think about you, to have you back. But last night really surprised me when I think back.. You asked to to come back, you tell me everything about what and why you want to come back to me :') You said that you really regret on what was happened and want me back, you told me everything about what you feel and you desperately needs me.
      Wish it come true dear. I do love you so much more even you're so far away. Even you're bring this relationship down but seriously I'm still loving you. Perhaps someday I can show you how much I love you all this time. I had tried to live this life without you and sometimes I can cry because of you. I love you dear one :')

Annyeong :(

Aigooo :'( so suddenly the thing that I hate pretty much disturbing n messing my mind. I seriously can't give you any chance to love me like all of my ex's did before. Think twice before you totally regret it. Sooner or later you might get hurt. It's not because I can't love anybody else but I'm not ready to give any serious commitment in any relationship. I hope you understand. Before you get hurt its better for you to step backward and stop on hoping.
     I thought everything will be fine but seems like I can't help it huh~ perhaps someday you guys out there dont give to much hope on someone who really refuse to take you as their partner ;)

Suddenly I felt something ain't right here. I don't know what but it's totally freak me out and I can't believe that my tears already falling. NOW. Ohh,,can I just cry without any reason?come on la I'm not strong enough to face any dissapointment just now. CRY CRY CRY :'( CRY CRY CRY CRY!!!!!!!!!!

New Year New Journey

Happy New Year 2013 blogie :D hmmm.. Perhaps I can begin new life and forget the past.. Dear God please hear my prayer. Amen. Ohhh!! Nothing much to say la.. -_____-' hahaha..
#to be continued

Sigh~

Again... Few drop of my tears. What can I say if I trully love him and cannot get over him. God please show me Your mercy! All I want is to forget everything about us. I just want to rip away all those pain that still bothering me for a very long time. It's been a month that I show my pain with all those fake smile. WHY??? I almost 'kill' myself with those perfect fake smile. No one knows hows it's going. Some says that I'm just a perfect liar with sweet talks. Now I wonder some of the guys out there still hoping to be the best for me and I'm so sorry, my pain taught me to be more careful and do not give them your heart as easy as you did before. I might break your heart but for sure I never meant to, it's for good so you don't get hurt by me in the future. I wrote this because I suddenly saw my crystal clear when I saw old pictures of Dexter and me.

Last Day of Examination

I don't know what to say :) yesterday was our last examination day and on that day I went talked to my friends.. I mean my classmates. Ohhh how I missed them all these times. And sure I would like to thank God cause He hear my prayers to be with them again, gather and laughing in any way especially with my bestie Serpientie. I missed her so damn much! I carry myself out from school with little happiness tears *I wonder how could it be maybe with too much excited feelings*
     On 11 am suddenly I got message from Serpientie. She asked me to join them window shopping and movie'ing watching twilight. But I sat next to Fennylia while we go for movie ^_^ after we finished our movie we go to kbox *karaoke'ing* hahaha.. Well, Serp still holding me like the last time she holds me a month ago.. She still give me her most beautiful smile when I first met her in the car yesterday. She talks to me like nothing goes wrong between us. And most important thing is I really wanna say Thank You God because You heard my prayers! Here is some picture of us yesterday.. I'm so excited and I don't know what to say/add in this box :) but may you enjoy the pictures..

#awhhh forgot! picture maybe added on tis evening! wait for it

Lots Of Love ~Ana~